Can't Sleep

I'm sure everyone has those nights when you can't sleep because your mind is flipping through a million thoughts. Monday night I went to bed thinking about my neighbors, whose dad just got cleared from cancer and now he has terminal cancer.  I pray each night that that family will feel comforted and be blessed.  It stresses me out that they have to go through such a terrible thing and here I am with a wonderful healthy family.  I guess Heavenly Father just knows each and every one of us and knows which trials we can and can not go through.  So after praying for them and thinking about them, I fell asleep and  had a horrible dream about my dad dying from cancer.  I guess I got put in their shoes for a moment, but I was able to wake up from it all and realize... it was only just a dream.  Tonight I can't go to bed because I feel the spirit so strongly right now.  I feel so blessed for all that I have.  I sometimes feel that I can't express how grateful I am for the things I am blessed for, but I know Heavenly Father knows that I feel so blessed.  

Colton gets his call this Thursday!  I have been asking everyone to guess where he will go (just for my own amusement).  It is a big humbling experience to try and let go of all of your problems and put it into the Lord's hands.  I have been trying so hard to forget all about me, and focus on Colton and being excited for him!  It's true, I don't exactly know what will end up between Colton and I, if I'll be here when he gets home or not, but we both know that if we do what we are asked and keep the commandments, and have faith, then Heavenly Father has promised us that he will do the rest.  That is what I keep telling myself.  Even though I may not be the happiest person right now and confused about things, as long as I stay strong and stay close to Heavenly Father, he will simply guide me to happiness.  He is the only one that can do that.  Man, I love this gospel.