A Bunch of Mumble Jumble

So Saturday Colton and I went to Gardner Village.  It was packed since it was Witchfest?  We got a caramel apple (which were way over priced) and then stopped at a few stores. It was fun:)  After, we went to Brick Oven Pizza (it was delish! I am supposed to be on a diet tho:/).  We went back to Colton's and watched Domesday Prophecy, lets just say it was a low budget film.  It was an over all great night:)  

Today (Monday)  I went to work and was just really sad... In my head I kept thinking my world will be over in a couple of months.  I feel so alone and confused about everything.  Satan was definitely taking over my mind.  Everything was just really negative.  I feel I have no friend accept Colton and I don't know what I'm going to do when he is gone.  I feel like I am going to be so sad that I will completely lose who I am.  The people at my table definitely knew something was wrong.  I wanted to just cry the whole time.  Then I looked up and saw Colton smiling and laughing with all of his friends at work and it suddenly hit me.  All I want is for Colton to be happy and feel good about going on his mission.  He can't do all of that if I am going to sit in the corner and feel bad for myself.  So I told myself, no matter how hard these next couple of months and the months after he is gone will be, I will try my best to be as positive and as happy as I can be for Colton.  I don't want to think about myself and my problems anymore, I really just want to serve others! 

When I got home from work, I said a prayer that I can get the angry and sad thoughts out of my head and to fill it with loving and joyful thoughts.  I then went running and it helped a lot.  I LOVE running! It makes everything better haha.  So here I am on my couch writing and thinking to myself, "I have no idea where I am going to be in the next few months, I probably won't have any friends, I'm sure I will be sad, and school will be hard, but for some reason I have a smile on my face because I KNOW Heavenly Father will help me and will fill in all the blanks in my life.  I just HAVE to be strong, have faith, and serve others.