Cruise

Well, Colton is on his cruise right now and I am at home studying for finals!  It worked out well since I won't have any distractions while studying.  It also has been pretty hard.  Having him gone and not being able to even text him or communicate with him whatsoever.... kinda gives me a feel of what it will feel like when he is gone.  Maybe it's a good thing I am going through this, to prepare me or something, but it makes me scared.  Everyone tells me, "just stay busy, time flies, rely on Heavenly Father."  Which, all of these are very true (accept maybe the time flying by) I know what to do and what needs to be done, now I just need to live it.  I hope Colton is having a good time on his cruise!  I'm sure he is, who wouldn't?  Finals are kinda stressful but, it's not stressing me out too much.  I feel pretty confident about them.  This week just needs fly. So does these next two years. 

Christmas Party

Last night (Saturday) I went to Colton's family's Christmas party!  It is my second one with his family.  It is always fun:)  After we went to Colton's house and made hot chocolate and dipped ginger bread cookies in it.  It was delicious!  Then, we watched a movie and Colton fell asleep on my lap.  I drove home that night praying to Heavenly Father, pleading him that if Colton is the one for me, than please help me have the patience to wait for him.  

I have been wondering if maybe I should go on a mission.  I haven't really knelt down and prayed for an answer if I should go or not.  Right now, my future just seems so blurry.  So I got thinking, maybe a mission is what I need, but then I get super stressed about missing school and getting behind.  I know that Heavenly Father will of course bless me and find a way to get caught up but it's all so stressful to me.  I guess these next few days I will really ponder and pray if I should go on one or not.

School has been super stressful!  I am so excited to get it over with.  I really hope I can pass all of my finals with a good grade.  Colton will be leaving for a cruise this Friday so I will have a lot of time to study and no distraction from him haha.  It sucks, Colton will come home from his cruise December 15 and then we have a week before Christmas, then it will be New Years (which is our two year mark) and then I will only have a couple more weeks left with him!  It is all going by so quickly.  I am so scared, but I have to be strong.  

Friday, November 30, we celebrated Colton's birthday since he will be on his cruise for his birthday.  We went out to eat and then got frozen yogurt then watched The Grinch.  I love that movie!  It reminds me so much of Colton.  Last year we watched it in July, that's how much we love that movie.  I gave Colton a watch for his mission.  I hope it will be useful to him. I love him so much and I am so scared to not be with him for two years, but I am so excited for him.